Depression in a picture

  • You try to think positive. You really do, but your brain just won’t let you.
  • In fact, the harder you try to be optimistic, the more negative your thoughts.
  • The more negative your feelings.
  • All you ever see are the dark clouds. The bad memories, the unfulfilled dreams. The heartbreaks and toxicity.
  • It’s an ultimate trickster. Seeing darkness when there probably is none.
  • Life is really more of an enemy than a friend.
  • But it’s like that. Even without depression and anxiety fucking things up.
  • Speaking of anxiety, that’s another beast. It’s just as dark and twisted as depression, but also more chaotic.
  • Your stomach hurts all the time. It feels like an accordion constantly playing and twisting in your gut.
  • You are too afraid to move forward because of the thousands of “what if” scenarios.
  • What if this happens, what if that happens. This isn’t going to work out!
  • But one good thing about anxiety? It makes you a great planner.
  • But maybe there is hope. You may not see it. Hell, you probably don’t.
  • But it’s there and it exists.
  • You just have to keep on pushing.

A Comic about Masking

I had this idea floating in my head and I wanted to share it with you.  I hope you like it and it helps.
This is Minka….She’s 24 years old and she’s on the spectrum.She lives alone with her Goldfish, Franklin.Her two best friends are Jordan and Casey.Say “Hi”….They are the only 2 people in the world that I can be myself with.  We know everything about each other.  Including the fact that  I’m autistic. But I never see them much anymore 😭.  So I feel very alone.Most of my coworkers like me, mainly because of the other Minka.  Who is the other Minka, you ask?  Well, she is my mask, of course.In the past, people made fun of me for being different.  I didn’t know what I did wrong…..

Why is it so easy for everyone else and so hard for me?

Did you know about all of the social rules out there?  I didn’t and neither do most Auties.  Not at first, at least.

So I had to observe other people, read books, watch movies and TV shows etc.  Basically anything to learn how to fit in.
And… worked.  I made friends.  I did fun things.  Mostly fun for my friends.  Even went on some dates.

But my mask was wearing me out.  I never felt comfortable telling my new friends how I really felt. 

Every day, I was just so worn out and tired.  Sick of lying.

But I need a break from my new friends and need my real ones.  How do I fix my problems?

I have to be me.  Masking may seem worth it, but it isn’t really.

Did you like Minka? 

See ya when I see you. 

Self-Doubt in a Picture

I recently took up art/painting as a hobby. Which I hope will be a side hustle….like writing. I’m someone who is filled with self-doubt. I don’t know where it comes from or why it is. It just is. Understand? What does self-doubt look like? Well, that’s different for everybody, but here is mine….

  • The dots are my friendships. They mean a lot to me, but I often wonder if I’m a good enough friend. Plus will I be able to hang out with them real world style?
  • Love. I want it, but then I don’t. I want it. No I don’t. Do I want this or is it a society thing?
  • Yes? No? Maybe….
  • Money. One of the things we shouldn’t need but do. I’d like more money for more experiences.
  • In Scrabble, the little blank square can be anything. That’s what the last cloud represents. The thoughts run rampant.
  • I think about many things and my mind is often very busy.
  • The big question mark represents doubts, wondering if I’ll ever be completely happy again. It also means “Why?”.
  • I don’t remember what the colorful background means.

I’ll paint more pictures and post them later.See ya when I see you.

Let’s Talk about Lists, Baby part 2

*This is a continuation of the Rudy Simone Aspergirls list post.

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Now where were we? Oh yes….

A part 2 to last week’s list. Here we go.

Emotional & Physical

  • Emotionally immature and emotionally sensitive: Well. I know I’m pretty sensitive. I can get offended easily sometimes, but I usually keep my emotions under control. Or I try to. I don’t always feel mature either. Old lady, teenager. Old lady, teenager. Kid. So I guess this is a yes.
  • Anxiety and fear are predominant emotions: Yep. I have generalized anxiety too.
  • More open to talking about feelings and emotional
    issues than males with AS: This wasn’t always true, but it’s become more true as time goes on. I have a hard time putting my feelings into words, and often don’t what I’m feeling exactly. So you need a sounding board. I’m pretty sure men with ASC do this too.
  • Strong sensory issues – sounds, sights, smells, touch,
    and prone to overload.: There are some sights I can’t stand. Smells? Not really. Touch? Some forms of light touch just bothers me. It feels like a second skin. Sounds? Oh hell yes. Unexpected sounds, loud noises, sirens, TVs and loud music blaring. Yeah, a lot of sounds bother and rattle me. Drain my energy. I get overloaded pretty fast and need long breaks.
  • Less likely to have taste/food textures issues as males: I can’t eat raw foods. It just feels….icky.
  • Moody and prone to bouts of depression.: Yep. I barely survived the latest bout. It’s been on and off for years.
  • Probably given several different prescriptions to treat
    symptoms. Will be very sensitive to medications: Yep, I have tried lots of pills over the years. I’m not completely sure of the second part.
  • 9 out of 10 have mild to severe Gastro-intestinal
    difficulties – e.g. ulcers, acid reflux, IBS, etc.: I was diagnosed with acid reflux a few years ago.
  • Stims to soothe when sad or agitated: rocking, face rubbing, humming, finger flicking, leg bouncing, finger
    or foot-tapping, etc.: I clap, rub my face, circle my legs in bed and do lots of other stims when I’m upset.
  • Similarly physical when happy: hand flapping,
    clapping, singing, jumping, running around, dancing,
    bouncing: I do little dances and squeal sometimes. I happy clap.
  • Prone to temper or crying meltdowns, even in public,
    sometimes over seemingly small things due to sensory
    or emotional overload : Yes, this has happened. Thankfully, I rarely have meltdowns. But I’ve had a lot of shutdowns.
  • Hates injustice and hates to be misunderstood; this can
    incite anger and rage: I do hate injustice. Not just for me, but for anyone who gets treated badly. People go thru so much shit and it’s not fair. I’m often misunderstood, but it mostly makes me feel lonely.
  • Prone to mutism when stressed or upset, esp. after a
    meltdown. Less likely to stutter than male counterparts
    but may have raspy voice, monotone at times, when
    stressed or sad: Sort of. I stutter sometimes when I’m upset.

Social Relationships

  • Words and actions are often misunderstood by
    others: Yup, totally. Especially when I was really little. Somewhere along the way, I found myself explaining my actions and words to people because I felt sure they wouldn’t understand. But then, I end up confusing them even more.
  • Perceived to be cold-natured and self-centered;
    unfriendly: Sometimes. I can look bored or mad or just unhappy. But really, it’s just a case of Resting Bitch Face.
  • Is very outspoken at times, may get very fired up
    when talking about passions/obsessive interests: Yes! And I feel really amazing when I can go into “teacher mode” and finally talk about my special interests. Or someone just randomly mentions *enter special interest/obsession here*. Then I unintentionally interpret it as “Talk, baby!”. But my conversation partner usually gets bored along the way.
  • Can be very shy or mute: Yes. Like I said before, I’m kind of shy in real life. And even when I’m out and about, I keep to myself and not talk. I’ve had a few trips where I’ve barely made a word towards anyone.
  • Like her male counterpart, will shut down in social
    situations once overloaded, but is generally better
    at socializing in small doses. May even give the
    appearance of skilled, but it is a ‘performance’: I can only last 2 hours in public–3 if I’m lucky. I’m good at socializing in small doses. I can even pretend that I know what I’m talking about sometimes. But sooner or later, the real me always comes out.
  • Doesn’t go out much. Will prefer to go out with
    partner only or children if she has them: I’m very single, so the second part doesn’t apply. But I don’t go out much. Maybe just 2 or 3 times a month. Unless you count going to therapy.
  • Will not have many girlfriends and will not do
    ‘girly’ things like shopping with them or have get-togethers to ‘hang-out’: I have friends, but most of them are online. The rest are literally family. All important to me. I hate shopping, but I’ll do it if it makes my friend happy. My ideal scenario is going out and doing stuff together and not have to socialize as much. Like museums or movies or bowling or video games etc. You get to know people by doing stuff with them as well.
  • Will have a close friend or friends in school, but
    not once adulthood is reached: Each year in school–except middle school–I’ve always had at least one ‘best friend’. I have people I consider good friends and best friends, but everyone is so dang busy. Nobody seems to have time to go places with me or talk. I’m a loner and very used to my own company. Making friends as an adult really is hard.
  • May or may not want to have a relationship. If she
    is in a relationship, she probably takes it very
    seriously but she may choose to remain celibate or
    alone: I ping-pong between wanting a relationship and not wanting one constantly. I like my freedom and independence. I like doing what I want when I want how I want. I need those things. But sometimes you wonder, “Maybe having a relationship could be nice”.
  • Due to sensory issues, will either really enjoy sex
    or strongly dislike it: No comment.
  • If she likes a male, she can be extremely,
    noticeably awkward in her attempts to let him
    know, e.g. she may stare when she sees him or call
    him repeatedly. This is because she fixates and
    doesn’t understand societal gender roles. This will
    change with maturity: Hell yes! When I was in grade school thru high school, that was especially true. I would attempt to flirt and talk and try to ask guys out. It would be known to the world how crazy I was about whoever at the time. I didn’t known about any social rules. Now as an adult, I know some of them, but I don’t give a fuck. Somehow between college years and now, I went from being “confident” with men to being terrified of them. To being very shy and cautious. Men scare me a little.
  • Often prefers the company of animals but not
    always due to sensory issues: Ah, the whole animals vs humans debate. I like humans in general. But animals are different. They love you unconditionally. NO bullshit social rules. Moving stim toys. Love and comfort. But sometimes, their fur tickles in the bad way. Those sudden meows and barks. Man, they have such sharp and loud claws. And don’t get me started on those fights between those furry family members.

So that’s all for Rudy’s list. See you next time!

Let’s Talk about Lists, Baby part 1


I was a teenager when I got my diagnoses–depression, ASD and generalized anxiety.  In that order.  I just sort of accepted it at first.  But I didn’t get a true understanding of my diagnosis until my mid 20s. It was around that time I brought a book that changed my life: Aspergirls by Rudy Simone. Then I was happy because I finally found other women like me. The “weirdos”. The women who went thru what I did–at least some different version of it. It felt like coming home in a lot of ways.

Of course, those who are familiar with her know about her famous list of traits in female Auties. And her much less famous list of comparisons between men and women on the spectrum.  So I’m going to use her list in this week’s article.  And you can tell me how you relate.

Appearance/Personal Habits

  • Dresses comfortably due to sensory issues and practicality: Yep. I dress up in dark pants and T-shirts and flats. Or sneakers. Which are flats. Maybe. Comfort all the way for this Autie.
  • Will not spend much time on grooming and hair. Hairstyles usually have to be ‘wash and wear’.: This is true of me. I mostly wear ponytails and loose buns. I only wear my hair down when I’ve had a perm and I know my hair will stay straight. I’m generally not a person who likes to spend much time grooming. You just need to do the basics. But every one is different, so moving on…
  • Eccentric personality; may be reflected in appearance:  People have always said that I’m different.  At first, I didn’t understand why they were saying that.  Over time, I realized that maybe I am in some ways.  Does it reflect in my appearance though?  Maybe?  I usually only wear patterned shirts or just shirts with bright colors.  
  • Is youthful for her age, in looks, dress, behavior and tastes”:  I still feel like a teenager trying to ‘find’ herself.  Plus, I look and often act much younger than my age.  Then sometimes, I act older than my age.  I love Chicken McNuggets, which is often described as a “kids food”.  Is it?  My stomach loves them and that’s what counts.  I love the “High School Musical ” movies and some other Disney movies.  Even though, I often find myself watching more grown-up movies and TV shows.  And often have more grown-up interests, but not always.  So yeah.  I guess this one is somewhat true.
  • Usually a little more expressive in face and gesture than male counterparts:  People say this about me a lot.  But then people have also assumed that I was angry or upset or something when I wasn’t.
  • May not have a strong sense of identity, and can be very chameleon-like, especially before diagnosis:  I don’t know of this true……
  • Enjoys reading and films as a retreat, often sci-fi, fantasy, children‘s, can have favorites which are a refuge:  Well. I do enjoy reading and films.  I watch and read when focus allows.  I love being transported into different worlds for a hour or two or three.  I’ve had hundreds and hundreds of movies over the years.  And I have watched said movies to the point where I could tell you the plots years after the fact.  
  • Uses control as a stress management technique: rules, discipline, rigid in certain habits, which will contradict her seeming unconventionality:  Yes.  I don’t think I’d call myself a control freak, but I feel better when I’m in charge.  I hate when things don’t go according to plan.  Even though I know at this point that almost nothing goes according to plan. I need stability and routine in order to feel safe.  I’m only okay with change when it’s my idea, nobody else’s. I have a lot of rules I made up in order to get thru life.  People have called me sort of closed-minded and rigid.  You need to open up more, Nikki!  Can you be a free spirit when you need stability too?
  • Usually happiest at home or in other controlled environment:  Yes.  I like being at home and in bed.  But it’s starting to get boring.  So I have other places I go to on a semi-regular basis.  And those places are usually very safe to me.  I always have fun when I’m there.  Getting home is another story.  New places are scary to me, mainly because they’re…new and unfamiliar.  I do massive amounts of research online before visiting new places, but still…..

Now the second part of Rudy’s list, the intellectual stuff:

  • May have been diagnosed as autistic or Asperger‘s when young, or may have been thought of as gifted, shy, sensitive, etc.:  I was 16 when I got my official diagnosis.  I am a little shy in real life and people say that I’m very sensitive.  Which I think I am.
  • Often musical, artistic:  Um…? Writing counts as art, right?  Plus, I have a passing interest in painting.  So yes.
  • May have a savant skill or strong talent:  I write.  I guess that’s my skill, but I’m not a savant.  I’m a great planner, but bad at executing said plans.  Hence the term, executive dysfunction.
  • May have a strong interest in computers, games, science, graphic design, inventing, things of a technological and visual nature.:  I love “The Sims 3”.  Otherwise, nah.
  • More verbal thinkers may gravitate to writing, languages, cultural studies, psychology:  Yep, this is me all the way.
  • May be a self-taught reader, been hyperlexic as a child, and will possess a wide variety of other self-taught skills as well:  I don’t think I was a self-taught reader.  I don’t remember.  But I do remember being a very avid reader up until I was in my 20s.  My 30s have seemed to rob me of my concentration.  Or maybe that’s a lessening interest in reading, but I still like reading.  I’m definitely an autodidact.  I’ve taught myself languages, how to fix things, how to paint (kinda), how to write etc.  But then I forget just about everything I ever taught myself.  Especially languages because you have to be around people speaking said languages in order for those to stick.  And the good news is that I tend to cycle thru my special interests and obsessions, so I can always re-teach myself.
  • May be highly educated but will have had to struggle with social aspects of college. May have one or many partial degrees:  If you mean “highly educated” in the traditional sense, then no.  Did I struggle with the social aspects of school?  Yup!  And I have at least 3 partial degrees.  Ten plus years in school and nothing to show for it…..
  • Can be very passionate about a course of study or job, and then change direction or go completely cold on it very quickly:  Absolutely.  With my majors and my obsessions/special interests, certain foods or music, careers etc.  But I always end up learning a lot, and I love learning.  So that’s something.
  • Will often have trouble holding onto a job and may find employment daunting:  Yes.  I haven’t had a job in over 10 years.  It was hard trying to work and go to school at the same time.  Trying to get a job now is tricky for many reasons.
  • Highly intelligent, yet sometimes can be slow to comprehend due to sensory and cognitive processing issues:  Completely accurate.
  • Will not do well with verbal instruction –needs to write down or draw diagram:  I suck at verbal instructions.  You verbally tell me to do something, and I’ll forget like 10 seconds later.  So I repeat instructions ad nauseum while I’m with instruction giver or I just write it down.  Latter one is easier for both of us.
  • Will have obsessions but they are not as unusual as her male counterpart‘s (less likely to be a’train-spotter’):  I’ve had loads of obsessions, and many of those have to do with people.  Celebrities, especially.  Usually just one at a time.  When I was little, I loved those “My Little Pony” dolls.  I would play with nothing but those.  Until Cabbage Patch Dolls.  Then my long obsession with anything “Barbie”.  So I guess this is very accurate.  


So let’s continue this next week, shall we?  

What if I’m Empathic?

**I think this part 2 of a previously written I wrote?  But I’ll get back to it later. **

Remember when I said that I lacked empathy, but had a lot of sympathy? Well…the sympathy part is still very true. But what if you are an empathetic person and just never realized it before?  It’s funny how life works sometimes.  Every day, I learn random and meaningful shit about myself.  I learned that I can and have felt empathy.  But I still don’t feel it very often.  It isn’t as black-and-white as I thought.  I just relearned that I do have black-and-white thinking about a lot of things.  These following examples I’m listing are just things I’ve noticed in people and myself.  Some made up terms.

Is there such a thing as……

  • occasional empathy?:  Where you only feel it for certain people. Friends, family, that heartbroken woman you met at CVS just once?   You can put yourself in their shoes, but don’t realize it until you’ve thought it through. What is that—cognitive empathy?
  • Situational empathy?:  You only feel it in certain situations.  With other autistic people.  Or going thru constant rejection and heartbreak with the opposite–or maybe same–sex.  Whatever you’re into.  Other people whose loved once died of heart attacks.  Or have toxic relationships with certain family members.  Battle against organized religion in a very religious small town?  Online empathy!  Stuff only certain types of people would understand.
  • Once-in-a-blue-moon empathy?: I think this is me.  Maybe.  But empathy is just something you don’t experience very often.  People often think you’re guarded or cold, when you’re not.  Like I said before, people don’t often know the storm of emotions going on inside of the Autie.  Or maybe anyone?  Every now and then, something or someone kind of shakes us without us knowing why.
  • One-time-only empathy?:  You feel empathy out of nowhere and don’t know why.  And it may never happen again in this lifetime.  And maybe that’s okay.

But not having empathy? That alone doesn’t make you a bad person.  It’s tough to try to step into other people’s shoes.  It’s something I still struggle with every day.  And even random empathy and not understanding my own feelings and emotions. 

Blah, blah, blah.  That’s all I have for now.  See you next time!

Some Social rules I don’t understand

Are they really friends?

As Auties, we do things quite differently than our NT peers. Oftentimes, they don’t understand us and vice versa. But what are some things that you don’t understand about NTs? Well, the list in my head would turn into a novel. So I’m just gonna list a few.

Friends or frenemy? Both?: Not long ago, I read this book called Necessary People. It was apparently a story about a long friendship that gradually turns sour. But throughout the novel, you realize that these two women never liked each other to begin with. Yet they called each other friends? I realize that a lot of people in real life are like that as well. Why? If you don’t like someone, don’t hang out with them. Easy as that.

Look at me please: I’m pretty good at looking people in the eye. But then my eyes dart and wander during conversations. Why? Because….that’s just the way I am. I’ve also managed to have whole conversations with people without looking at them once. Because you can talk to people without eye contact.

Lies black white and grey: People sometimes lie to spare loved ones’ feelings. Okay. But why? Isn’t it easier to just tell the truth? Won’t that save more time? Show you who your friends really are?

Fitting in:  I understand the desires to make friends, fall in love, be part of a big “tribe” etc. But why do some people do or say things they hate just to fit in? Even autistic people? When you do things you aren’t comfortable with in order to fit in, isn’t it a big sign that the person or group isn’t right for you?

I’m right here!: I hate when 2 or more people try to talk to me at the exact same time. Especially when it’s louder than just talking. You each can wait your turn.

If you do something for someone:…..It should out of the kindness of your heart. Not because you expected an IOU.

That’s all for now.  I think I’ll turn this into a series. 

See you next week. 

Little Talk about Anxiety

Anxiety is basically fear. Fear of really bad things happening. Fear of uncertainty. Fear of rejection. Fear of life. Apprehension. Uneasiness. Fear, fear, fear. I have had this diagnosis of GAD since I was 18. But I’ve been able to keep this under control…kinda. Maybe? There are so many different types of anxiety–OCD, generalized anxiety, social anxiety etc. Living a life where you’re constantly afraid of…something, someone, some very likely catastrophic event that only happens in your head etc. It all sucks. And it’s common amongst those of us on the autistic spectrum. I wonder which kind of anxiety is most prevalent? I wonder if what I go thru is actually anxiety and autism blended into each other?

Anyways, does this apply?

  • Reading upsetting things: The news, natural disasters, horror stories about your friends. It could be anything, good or bad. But it makes your heart and stomach do a weird little dance.
  • Sensory issues: brought on by things that don’t bother NTs. But it makes you anxious and uncomfortable, amongst other bad emotions.
  • Intrusive thoughts: Those celebrities you don’t wanna think about. The headache that makes you wonder if you have brain cancer. The pain that makes you afraid you’re dying. Weird looks from strangers when you stim. Looks when you do something embarrassing. That outing that went awry. Etc, etc. Your brain won’t let you forget those moments. It finds ways to make your life, body and day…..miserable. Every muscle is in pain thinking these thoughts. You constantly wonder if you’re truly intuitive, crazy, anxious or all three.
  • Constant fear: That you’re fake, that the world is gonna end soon. That you’re a bad person, bad friend, bad daughter or son etc. It’s literally enough to give you panic attacks.
  • Words of “encouragement”: Sometimes, telling yourself it’s going to be okay just makes you even more anxious. It will be okay. Just don’t tell yourself that when your brain is really attacks you.
  • Rituals: Most of your rituals are actually comforting. But not moving on until you wipe your toilet or unplug your fan isn’t exactly helpful.
  • Is this: ……an autistic thing? Anxiety thing? OCD thing? ADHD thing? Me thing? What thing?! The anxiousness, the madness!!

Okay that’s all for now, folks. Talk to you next week.

Things I don’t like about being Autistic

There is good and bad in everything and everyone. The same principle applies to life on the spectrum. A while ago, I wrote about some of the positives that come with being autistic. Enough of them to honestly say, “I don’t want to be cured. Fuck Auti$m Speaks!”.

But what about the not-so-great parts of it? Let’s talk about it:

  • Nobody seems to take you seriously:  Do you ever have those moments where you have a problem in life that needs to be solved?  Or a great idea that you just have to share?  But when you share this idea or a solution to said problem, you immediately get rebuffed.  They tell you:  “That’s a bad idea” or “That’s dumb”.  “It won’t work”.  Then you feeling rejected or stupid or alone or worse.  That seems to be a common theme in my life and other Auties.  It just hurts! 

  • Sensory issues are a bitch:  There was a time in my life where sensory issues weren’t a problem for me.  And then “Bam!”.  Suddenly it’s a big issue.  Noises and sounds and certain sights that didn’t bother you before make you wanna rip out your hair and scream. Instead it just makes you tired, or in constant pain or like you’re stuck in a bad movie.  And wool 😫.
  • Why don’t I fit in?:  I guess this applies to any weirdo, neurodiverse or otherwise.  But definitely neurodiverse.  Anyway, we’re natural-born aliens.  No matter what we say or do, we just can’t fit in.  Even if we manage to mask really well, it never feels right.  Why? 
  • Executive dysfunction:  It isn’t the worst thing, but it annoying as hell.  Why does my short-term memory suck?  Other adults appear to have an easier time with this executive function stuff and I’m jealous.  (Only a little bit).
  • Some people just don’t get you:  ….and they don’t even try.  Every time someone says that you’re too sensitive or are otherwise dismissive of your very real issues.  It hurts…a lot.
  • No one to share your special interests/obsessions: Common theme for me.
  • Constant self-doubt:….and you don’t know if it’s an “autism thing” or a me-thing.
  • Can I be myself now?:  I think I will…..
  • Jealous of NTs at times:  Sometimes you just can’t help it.  You wonder why some things are easier for them and not so easy for us.  Do you think they feel the same about us?
  • ….and a couple of  other things.

What about you?  Tell me in the comments.

See you next week!

Questions we all Know and Hate…..

I’ve been around for almost 36 years. I’ve heard, asked, answered and wondered about 1000s or maybe millions of questions so far. And yes, a few of them have to do with my being autistic. But I never knew how to respond or what to think when being asked. Just “Huh?” or “What the fuck?” or just going blank.

I know that the people asking these questions usually mean no harm. But whether you do or not, you’re being kinda dismissive. You’re basically saying that our struggles and our issues aren’t that a big a deal. They may not matter as much to you, but they matter a great deal for us. We have to live with them every day.

So how do you respond to questions like….

Everyone’s a little autistic?: Says who? The 2% of people who are autistic? Or the more than 2% who don’t know that they’re autistic yet? Lack of proper resources, ya know? Sure, a person can have certain symptoms of autism, but that doesn’t they’re “a little autistic”. It means they might have something else.

Everybody goes thru that!: Really. Do they? Why didn’t they tell me? I guess it’s true to some extent. People have communication issues sometimes. They get anxious in certain social situations. They have food they don’t like. So on and so forth. But Auties go thru that far more than NTs do. How often do you go thru that?

You’re being a drama queen or “king”!: Drama people live for drama. They need it like food. But when we are overstimulated, get talked over or just have problems most people just don’t have? We’re just drama people? NO, we’re misunderstood. Try living in a world where you’re constantly misunderstood. You’d react the same way. Or maybe you won’t? I don’t know.

You’re too sensitive: That might be true, but there is a very good reason for that. It isn’t to annoy you. I’ve told you this before…..

You don’t seem autistic?: I’ve spent years studying people, psychology, learning body language, social rules etc. I’ve learned to be great at pretending to be normal. I should get an Oscar nod for my performance. Wait, is that too arrogant?

You don’t look autistic: Well, we don’t really have a “look”. In fact, you wouldn’t really know that an Autie is an Autie unless we told you. Or unless, you’re well-versed in autism. Because like mentioned above, we’re award-winning actors.

I’m sorry 😞: Why? I’ve been autistic my whole life. It has ups and downs like….anything else. It isn’t horrible at all. I’m good. I like who I am.

Any more well-meaning questions I forgot to add? Let me know in the comments, if so inclined.

Until then, see you next time!